June cough

I can't even sleep. I am so tired of being sick. I have been sick my whole life and although I try not to live in the state of well this is how it's always been I can't help but think I was just dealt a crappy immune system. And there is some weight in that since I was a poor doer even as an infant....I couldn't drink my mother's breast milk and I am sure I missed out on valuable immune complexes from her. Or whatever they're called. And now instead of driving across the province to go camping with my friends in cozy Alberta I am home in Vancouver....trying to nap but coughing so much I can't. I am frustrated. I thought this blog would be more positive and I guess it will be but right now I am upset. I am going to the library to spread germs on all the books because I have a book to return and I feel like being a tiny bit evil.